The original odd one out!

[disenchantedenchantress]

So why is this Enchantress so Disenchanted?

Ever feel like the square peg trying fit into the round hole? Well, imagine feeling like a dodecahedron!

I have always felt like the odd one out. As a child, throughout secondary school (very much so), through Uni, work and basically all aspects of my life. While I am not exactly dissatisfied with my lot, but sometimes I just, well, wonder if I am on the right path and is this it?

I have this bizarre aversion of being accused of copying people, so if friends of mine have done/studied/experienced something before me, I have a real problem with then studying the same thing. Part of the problem is that I am scared of getting something wrong and looking like a prat.  Another is that I like being original, but there isn't really anything original anymore.  I know that my friends that have studied stuff before me aren't going to frown on me if I am interested in the same stuff. Hell, one of the reasons we are friends is because we have similar interests, but all the same, I suppose I like being a leader rather than a follower in most aspects of my life! It's all a bit pathetic really, and something I should get over!

So what am I interested in? Unencumbered by what others have studied already.

• Thelema
• Voudoun
• Folk Magic
• Ogham
• Runes
• Hekate (however part of me is wondering if I am just copying mates, even if She does look very interesting. I have had no Calling from Her as such.)
• Herbalism
• Starting up a Group

And that's just off the top of my head.

I have just reread all that, and actually it's quite amusing that on one hand I am complaining about always being the odd one out, and then on the other saying I want to be original!! Make up your mind, woman!!! :P